Wednesday, December 27, 2006

Qustions of love

When we are young our parents tell us what they think we should know. When we are young our parents tell us what they want us to know about the world. Well we get older and we start having questions of our own that our parents can't answer. So what do we do? Not questions like why is the sky blue or anything like that. Real questions. Questions we have to live to get the answers to. Like why do we fall in love? Or what will happen in my life with the person I fall in love with? Mom and Dad can't answer those for us. But a long time ago my mom told me something that I will never forget, and I think its true to a point, she said " we all fall in love with someone that has a similar trait as one of our parents". Now I have yet to figure out if that is true for me right now, however in a way I hope it is. B/c both of my parents protected me as best as they could growing up and taught me well. I only hope that the man I spend the rest of my life with can do that as well, and love me the way I need to be loved. And no matter what me and him go through we will always come out strong.

Now we all know that with every relationship there will be some kind of problem that you have to work out. Like trust, now I know I'm still young and I have my life ahead of me and everything and I may not know as much as I should at this age, I don't hide that fact. And I don't play off that fact b/c I do know allot for someone my age. I know that sometimes we are forced to do things we don't want to do but have to do. But how do you know when that time is? How do you know that the one you want to spend the rest of your life with is the right one for you? How do we know that there won't be a day where you don't want to leave the one your with but you have to for what ever reason? There are times when I sit and think about that probably more than I should. But I digress. I don't want to come across as some ranting young woman because I"m not. What I am is someone who wants and needs some help every once in a while just like everyone else in this world of ours.

Anyways from what I have learned in my life so fare I think I will be able to figure out part of those questions of love. But I also know that when I'm with that person I'm susposed to be with for the rest of my life it will take about that to find out the other parts of those questions. But if you have any advice for me please leave it.

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